He is.

I’m in a weird season..

I don’t like this “season of waiting” I am in. I am excited for what is to come, I thank God for what has taken place, but why am I where I am in this moment? I don’t understand. I don’t know what my purpose is in the “now,” nor does any of it make sense. I don’t want to say my prayers are not being answers, but I am so exhausted waiting. Waiting: I feel like that is the epitome of my life currently.

However, the Lord reminded me: Psalm 46:10 “Be still and know that I am God.” All of this is unfamiliar, but He’s God. I don’t know what the next step is, but He is God. This hurts, and I am exhausted, but He is God. I don’t like this, but He is God. I’m drained, but He is God. I don’t know what’s going on, but He is. “He is” (esit) in the Bible literally translates into “we cannot.”

I can’t, but He is. In my quiet time the other day I just got to this moment where I was cradle in the arms of God, and I don’t want to move. I am just still and He is God.

I don’t like this season. It’s uncomfortable, it’s not fair, and it doesn’t make sense. But He’s God. And I know that He’s good.

However, because He is, I can. I can have hope because He is God. I can walk in joy because He is God. I can have faith because He is. He is. He is bigger. He is better. He is just. He is merciful. And He is jealous for me. 

I can be, solely because He is God. I can find rest because He is.

“Consider it pure joy when you fall into various trials,

knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience.

But let patience have its perfect work, where you may be

perfect and complete, lacking nothing.”

-James 1:2-4.

-kf.